Crossroads

"Where to?"

Yes.I know I haven't updated for a stupid amount of time.I've been very lazy these days.(I know it's bad,I'm trying to get rid of it.) So lazy that I didn't couldn't find any inspiration to write,it was damn un-inspiring,depressing and boring for the past few days.

Enough of the bad news and boring crap.

So today, actually...A few days ago, I realized I was lost in life.

"I'm so dumb...I'm lost!"

NO.

It was actually a feeling of being at the crossroads, with no direction whatsoever. I felt as if I was stuck in a moment. I didn't know where to go. I didn't know where I was leading my myself to in life.

Sometimes, in life, most of us progress at such pace,that we tend not to stop and realize.
We advance so fast, that we didn't know where our choices took us, or HOW FAR we've went.

For me,I JUST realized I was living the life on the fast lane, making decisions without thinking twice, or thrice, JUST GOING WITH THE FLOW.  AND YES, its not the right thing to do!
"Going with the flow"...

Lost, in MANY aspects. but still finding new light and looking forward.

One of the "Choice" cards we have in life has the words,"THINK POSITIVE" printed on it.
It's really up to us to DRAW THAT CARD FROM THAT DECK.

Oh...I almost forgot, TODAY was a damn productive day, one of the best Tuesdays I had,
managed to stay cool,calm,concentrated and collected for the whole day,looking forward to more productive studying. GRANT ME MORE DAYS LIKE THIS.


Clinton,Haziq,Heesham and I got so bored in school today, we did THIS.

"The Leaning Tower Of Finished Drinks"


This is what happens when Satan loses a guitar battle.





 

Today I met three New Town Sec guys who had one of the most funniest conversations I heard in ages.

GUYS A,B,C . (Explicit)

1.
GUY A: (walks past guy B and throws ten dollars on the floor)
GUY B: I give you 10 seconds to pick up 10 dollars..
GUY C : (Bends down andPicks up the 10 dollar note.)
GUY B: Beggar!
GUY C: (Gives the note to Guy B)
GUY B: My mother one night 5 dollars, you give me 10 dollars for what?!

2.
GUY A: You maturbate to baby photos la! Pedophile.
GUY B: (Laughs)

3.
ME: What's your band name?
GUY A:Square
ME: What the hell?!
GUY B: That name is his girlfriend give him one la!

4.
GUY A: Wah, someone go Wikipedia change our school motto ah...
GUY B: To?
GUY C: They go change"Together we forge a new life" to "Together we forge a new Signature" !!!

5.
Guy A: That time we all prom night,the principle give us speech,the speech like assembly like that,waste Time  sia...Play Bingo, all 'bingo' at the same time. Principal tell everyone that after the show can dance,they all go home...


Firstly, RECESSION, now...
TIME RECESSION!

Suck It Up And Go Alone.

I need this.

Recently, 
I just realized one thing, its hard being alone if you're a social bubble...
Perhaps,you can...BUT, it'll take ages to get used too...I just realized I was being too loud and over-the-top recently. So I tried to make do with being a silent peep today. First try, tough luck.
It felt so...just so...TIRING and PATHETIC. But ironically, I STILL want to do it, no matter how much my mind tells me to be quiet and take life at a slower pace, there's still this animal inside of me wanting to get out and have fun, isn't it hard? My friends noticed today and my hypothesis was that they were freaked out my 'weird' behaviour. But was it considered 'weird' to me? No, It felt more of a DRAG. I still need to keep quiet and change that little/HUGE monster inside of me...

Wait, is it 'Little' or 'Huge' anyway? Who cares? I need the change,no matter how long it takes.

All of us, including YOU, dear reader..Have a flaw or something, and I suggest doing something about it no matter how hard it is,it'll benefit YOU and OTHERS in the long run.

TRUST ME.

Congrats to Jeremy on quitting smoking, together we escape early death and smelly breath.

: )

"Falls don't hurt, but the ones you can't see DO..." ~Me~

I Won't Be The Victim,But The First To Cast A Stone

"Oh My God..."

I'll be brutally honest. Just recently, I realized that SMOKING is 'stupid'. I could write an entire essay on that one topic and you'll think im blabbering nonsense, but the fact is that...YES, it is stupid.
I can tell you personal accounts,first-hand experiences and stories about 'smoking' and myself but I just feel it'll be toooooo 'STUPID'.

YES, smoking is fun,AT THE START.
but as time goes on you won't realize but you're actually hooked on a dangerous object that will SLOWLY and I mean VERY SLOWLY kill you.
YES, as stupid as it sounds, PAPER and LEAVES can kill you.

This boy doesn't want to sound like a hypocrite, but he hopes he will stop this ridiculous habit soon.

Just think about it...

Marlboro Menthol for 11.60?

thats worth a pack of Ernie Ball Stainless Steel guitar strings which will probably last 2 months or so...

considering smoking as a past time?

think again.

We Speak In Different Voices When Fighting With The Ones We Love.

"Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny."
- Unknown


















"My God,Slash you're already old and that cigarette don't deserve a place in that mouth of yours already...But you're always an inspiration."

I just realized that being 'kind', and actually BEING kind (not being kind for the sake of it) gives you a rush or a happy 'sort' of bodily chemical to your brain thus,making you feel a pleasant 'high'. Nothing druggy here. So...
The next time you're out there,

1.Give up your seat for an elderly person or a woman with a baby (My gosh,how would you feel if you were the mother?!)

2.Having basic courtesy like saying 'thank you' and 'sorry'

3.Having good manners. Don't smoke in people's face. Don't mouth vulgarites in front of public.
(I suppose it's perfectly fine if you're with your buddies. XD)

4.Many more I don't wish to list cause' I think it's common sense.

"Friends that watch your back,
Friends that play with your heart,
All act the same from the start,
Before you know it some disappear,
Others stay beside you for life,
Those are the friends,
The best friends."
~Gary R. Hess

Another Chance

"The Movie is here, looks kick-ass, but Cinema's deserve an ass-kicking because its
M-18... Ageist."

Well,Another hectic week has passed, I just realized I did a lot of mistakes to others
sub-consciously from the PAST YEAR till' now. It's just..surprising.
I never expected what my friends ACTUALLY thought of me. I didn't know.
I was just unaware.
I WAS JUST BEING A PRICK.
Repentant And Remorseful

Someone's gotta change things before its too late.

"There's No Wrong Way To Perform An Act Of Kindness."
~Catherine Ryan Hyde,Author

Another Sudden Epiphany!

"A middle finger to...MYSELF"

A week of agony,a week of whatever...*rambles again*
A week filled with the discovery of two "Wisdom Teeth" at the back of my mouth. How annoying when the dentist told me I was a,"rare case"... INDEED.

This week made me realize who I actually was, I can't describe the shock I received when a few of my buddies said I was putting up a 'facade' for quite a while now... A BAD FACADE.
A BAD ATTITUDE.

I'm now a "hypocrite,liar,phony,fraud,backstabber,badmouth...
TWO-FACE."

It got to THAT EXTEND.

I'm really sorry,white chocolate rabbit.

And also to the other people whom I've hurt.





"Sincere apologies." :(